Aite so the guy I met was single so that’s a relief; I’m not comfortable with open relationships or whatever. We fucked three times over the summer, but now we just send each other the occasional snap chat. I like him, but he’s too into drugs and who knows what other problems that come with having too much money too young. I think I’m going to see the guy I used to hate but now it’s mild disgust over Thanksgiving break again. I NEED TO BE THIN. One meal with snacks interspersed + 20-min, daily gym sessions is the plan at the moment. Also, I’m thinking of studying abroad over the summer in the Netherlands and toying with the idea of getting a tattoo in Amsterdam (I’d be 20 by then, hopefully by then I’d be endowed with some wisdom to know what I want).
Ok so I fucked the guy I love to hate three times so far (mall, his house, hotel in NY), and I’m a dumbass because I keep letting him fuck with my head. We’re not together, so I always feel so gross and dirty when I realize that he’s fucking around with other girls, one of which I met before through him so FUCK YOU. I met the cute guy at the GTA show in Philly again after I came home from college..we danced/made out. I’m pretty sure he has a girlfriend, but one of those open-relationship kind of deals. I didn’t ask. He’s in my sister’s grade though, Jesus fuckin’ Christ. I just loved how he made me feel like I was the only girl in the moment, unlike the other fucktard who I saw grinding with another girl when we got separated for a bit when we went to see Frontliner. Although I DID dance briefly with at least three other guys and gave one of them my number, I didn’t seek those situations and ended it quickly unlike that slutbag. GOD.
Bonnaroo was a dream. Dropped acid for the first time. The only downside was I kept running into people who looked like inbreeds-not exaggerating. I’m losing weight because of my job as a teacher at summer school. My most recent b/p was in June at home.